I've yet to accomplish anything for anyone.

I've yet to accomplish anything in my academic life. My studies aren't really going anywhere. I may be able to do some of the shit math and shit science, but what the shit do I want to do with them in future? I like the arts, but I just fail at it.

I've yet to accomplish anything in my CCA life. We're better off without the 5 hours a week. If I were to ask myself again why I became what I've become, I know I won't achieve it.

And most importantly, I've yet to accomplish anything in my social life; this is my regret deeper than anything else. 33's eating-out culture is fading out into extinction and I need a solution. I never was able to add life to the party, and I never was able to make anyone I care happy. (Eh, happiness?)

I'm a guy who has lost his ability and courage. I've yet to accomplish anything for anyone, and at this rate, I never will.

I'd love to have some encouragement. But am I just moving because I'm motivated by false hopes and impossible dreams? And for all this time, is my philosophy flawed? Are my beliefs wrong?

I need a top spinning unceasingly to tell me this is all a dream. I want to die in this dream and wake up to reality. Perhaps, that's a better world than this. Perhaps.

I've yet to accomplish anything for anyone. I'm sorry.