Wow, life sucks beyond the max.

I fail to meet all the deadlines I promised myself to meet. My motivation and mood to study is gone when I only just found it.

And I haven't been my usual self. Or I have been. The slightly confident and slightly optimistic me in the past has become completely disappointed and utterly unmotivated now. Any attempt to step forward that seems to show any sign of failure makes me withdraw several steps back.

Bleah I hate this -.- Every morning you tell yourself "Today I'm gonna be happier and more confident" but the determination to keep it that way fades away rather quickly.

So that's why I'm erratic isn't it? Suddenly sad and happy over the course of the week.


Looking back at this new chapter in AJ so far, though I don't like it, I guess I have to give it credit for giving me the opportunity to try again. If this was the last chapter of my life, I want to thank everyone for accompanying me and giving me a wonderful experience throughout this arduous journey.

Bah, right now. I have no idea how things will work out and whether they will work out. I find myself at a dead end, really. Cul de sac.

Took a bus ride home today and thought about it. Well, I guess we'll just try and try and try again, and we'll just give it time.

The journey's not over. Not just yet. All the best to all for the final sprint to the Promos.