So another year comes and another year goes and all the mixed feelings come back once more - How'd I spend this year? What was good? What was bad? Do I need to change? Have I changed too much? What wrongs do I need to right? What do I need to mend?
And once more in our heads, grand plans arise as to how we're gonna make the following year a better year than the previous, no matter what it throws at us.
It's healthy to celebrate festive times like these that make us 'reflect,' if you will, but I guess what would be even better is if we'd learn not to just let moods and atmospheres be the catalysts in all our attempts at self-betterment but to let it be a consistent thing instead. Just because you're 5 months into 2011 doesn't mean you can't take some time to think about what it's been like up to that point, right?
-Ziyad
I remembered it was New Year's - the arrival of 2010. It was dreadful (well, every new year seems dreadful since it's like anticipating the repeat of the cycle). But 2010 was particularly dreadful. Having to deal with the realisation that 4 years have passed and that I'm no longer a student of Victoria school was depressing. I remembered breaking down in my own room (emo bastard), looking through the year book, SLI programme booklets, staring at the Victorian Anthem at the last page and playing it in my head. I was also anticipating the release of my 'O' level results, which unfortunately was not able to take me where I desired.
It was all a dreadful beginning to 2010. And this was definitely not made better with the sheer work that PW has to offer. And over the course of the year, I haven't played a very proactive role in class, PhotoSoc, IT Club and yadayadayada. Bah. To sum it up, 2010 most likely sucked for me and I don't remember being truly happy. Well, maybe once - during PGD, when I saw my juniors reached a milestoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Bah, I don't know. Probably more than this once.
Ended the year off with not much of a high. Entire of December, besides camp and orientation, was spent like this: eat-shit-sleep-restart. Lost motivation to do anything at all. I think it got to the point where I even questioned my own purpose xD
Heh. But that's 2010. The crossover from 2010 to 2011 was spent at the Yangs' house. "Old league's" gathering. Played the games we usually played back then - Generals and BF2. Ah, miss the good old times. Stayed over, had breakfast, and left for home.
(VERY) soon after I reached home (15 minutes nap, heh), it was all packing and moving. Already moved half my house over. I'm kind of semi-excited 'cos I'm living in a new house, a new room (and yea, I like the colours). Seems like I have quite some space in my room because I don't occupy much space like that. Ha, I have no doubt that when school starts, I'll begin piling worksheets. So I guess I can start thinking of organising expeditions to conquer mountains at home.
Probably got quite a good start to 2011. I'm happy for the people who found their purpose, belief, love, relationship, self. Good for them to have done so. Hope they cherish the time they have in 2011 to go out and do the things they want to accomplish with their newfound whatever.
As for me, I don't really know what's hidden behind that door. All I know is it's back to sitting for a national exam. But on a probably more positive note, it's back to being a senior. AND OH OH OH, IT'S TWENTY-ELEVEN. YES. IT'S FOUR YEARS SINCE 2007 ALREADY. VICTORIAN CHALLENGE 2011. Might not participate this year, but definitely looking forward to seeing it!
sure the calendars get reset and you gotta get used to writing 2011 when you write the date and all that jazz, but that wouldn't have made time move along any more constantly. The minute of 2359 on 31 Dec 2010 is just as long as the minute of 0000 on 01 Jan 2011.
-Ziyad
Okay, I really don't like how twenty-eleven sounds. There's just nothing special to it. I remember one of Ziyad's old posts about how twenty-ten doesn't sound as nice as two-oh-oh-nine. Maybe it's just 'cuz we're no longer in VS. Gosh I am really missing VS.
-Jaren
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This is one of the main reasons why I went back for orientation. It's great to hear this music again. It's still resonating in me haha. Bad quality vid and audio, sorry!
